On the advice of Chögyam Trungpa, in his book Smile at Fear, I have been monitoring my thoughts rather closely.
One of the things that stands out from this exercise is noticing how often I blame myself for various things. The big one at the present time is blaming myself for underperforming professionally and in terms of major achievements in life.
The act of blaming myself is a distraction, and it impedes my ability to imagine new possibilities.
The obvious solution is to stop blaming myself. The logical extension of that act is to forgive myself for all errors, stretching far back in time.
If you do not try to repress your thoughts, but you just accept them and don’t get involved with them, then the whole structure of thoughts becomes one with you and is no longer disturbing.—Chögyam Trungpa
The next logical extension is to forgive everyone who I have ever blamed for anything. My family misbehaved in some very profound ways. Those sins—and the corresponding guilt—are no longer entered in my account books. Those sinners will have to work out their destiny with whoever runs this universe.
My habit of blaming myself is sufficiently imprinted on me that I will need some reminders and some practice to bring it to an end.
Trungpa’s guidance via this book is so important to me that I have basically put all other reading on hold for the time being.
The world is in the condition it is in largely because blaming people is a favorite activity. If I can renounce blame in my own life it might lead to some really interesting things happening. I will share the news here.